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Thursday, February 10, 2011

Back

Hey i'm back with the new me. Which is actually the old me. Which is the good me.

Anyways i think i've recovered from my down depressed times. So now im the good me. Cant think of anything to write really. Buuuut, lets just mention a few things i did.

Ok so i have an iphone. And i just recently found out that you can actually do pretty much anything for it. And what i found out was i can actually blog from it!??? Yeah ok its pretty stupid that i just found that out :P so yeah now i blog, tumblr and stuff from my iphone. It's everything for me now. Games, blogs, facebook, you mention it. And i also found out you can download images by holding the picture from your browser. That is cool.

Photography, you bet. Here's photos i took with it















Awesome huh???

If you think that's cool check this typography i made here






Well i guess that's it for the day. See ya next blog

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Must stop

Lebih banyak bersyukur

Ya, that's what I did. Does it work? Kinda. Hahaha. I mean yeah i've been more acceptance and all. And now i think im closer to friends here. Which is a really good thing. But it's just that i feel this uneasiness inside. Im actually used to it now since i felt it so many times -,-

Maybe i just miss indonesia that much. I surely hope it is

Anyway lately i've been doubting couple of questions. Like, why the hell am i writing this blog anyway? I've no followers, and no one actually gives a damn bout it anyway. So maybe... I'll just delete these things? Cause i'm just writing all my thoughts and feelings and complaints and... pretty much anything i felt bad about. Maybe i'll just keep a diary or smthng? But that'd be girly wouldn't it?

Meh. We'll see how things go.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Wake up

With this post I want to commit myself to renew my life. Time to wake up. To stand up what's right! Ok maybe that's to much. The point is, i just realized that all I do lately is just complaining. Haven't really thought how lucky I am to be here. Bottomline is I haven't been thankful enough. And I need to. Now all I have to do is to accept things and go through this tough times. After all Allah wouldn't give us problems or troubles that we ourselves can't handle right?

Mission renascence day 1 starts tomorrow!!!



Stranded

Imagine an island. Full of every single one of your wishes. And I mean everything from turkish delight to the most expensive mercedes. And you're stranded there by yourself. All of those things are yours. They're yours to play with or even to throw away.

Now. At this very moment, I'm in that island. But it's been a year since I'm stranded in that island. Well yeah it seems like I have such a beautiful life, or at least that's what people see. I have everything I wanted. Except a friend...

Yes, I'm that lonely. I seriously don't know what is happening with me. I see all my friends here as just, well I don't really know how to say this, people. They would just come and go. They'd just be another cloud in the sky. That I'll just glance for a second, and continue my regular day. That's just what happen everyday. The truth is, i never really have a bestfriend. I once had though. But it's a year ago. Since I left Indonesia.

Honestly, i miss my friends in Indonesia. I miss those togetherness. I miss those intimacy. It's a totally different world now here. People are so, i don't know, solitary. I think they're motto are "Mind your own business!" or "I belive in individualism".

Sure there's msn, facebook, skype and much more stuff to keep us connected and stuff. But the truth is, that's all a f**king bullshit! It's a f**cking 6 hours difference dude! By the time they chatted hi, my lazy ass would probably be snoring fast asleep! And they'd think I had such a new wonderful life here that I forget them!!! And I'll go like crazy getting on my nerve on simple thing such as loosing my eraser and start banging the door or blaming my brother for it! It's not just that. Hell, no. There's much more. This f**king IB program? With all the IA and EA, CAS and EE?! I think that's such a bullshit. If I were in Indonesia I'd probably be done with CAS now. There's paskib, scout, OSIS, much more group and voluntary work there. And EE? I'd probably have done 3 of them if I'm there by now. It's not about how tough the school is. For sure Indonesia has the toughest school. Or at least my previous school was. It's about the intimacy. Between the teachers and student. Between each students. Between classes. Between seniors and juniors. Between the staffs and the students. Between EVERYONE for god's sake!!!

Hhh... Deep breath... Exhale... Let's calm down.

Well as much as I complain today, it'll be just another stupid post from the stupid adhitya in his stupid blog. And yeah I know no one would actually read this lousy long list of complaints. Even if this post is read, none would actually care. It's either run away or face it. I want to face it. Even if that means I have to put a fake smile in my face everyday. So far, I have done well. :')

P.S. : I have been listening to these songs lately and it made me smile a little. If you've read you might try listening.
100 years- five for fighting
Fix you- either coldplay or the cover made by secondhand serenade
Boulevard of broken dreams- greenday
Wonderwall- oasis
Imagine- john lennon
No way out- phil collins
Trust you- from gundam 00 ost
Life is like a boat- from bleach ost
I wanna go to a place- from gundam seed ost
One- from RF ost
Because you believe- from gundam seed ost
Your call- secondhand serenade
I.M.U.- ten2five
I will fly - ten2five
Feels like home - ten2five
As long as i got you - ten2five

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Randomness posts

ola semuaaa
oke jadi gue bingung mau nulis apaan karena emang hidup gue penuh dengan kebingungan. oh anyway i love this post from my bestfriend : http://rendezvousriena.blogspot.com/2010/12/toy-story.html
Thanks Rienaaaa :D

uhm, well today i just wanna talk bout my future, YEAH! yeah but there's no fuss bout it coz i think i have no goddamn future. nni ya tiap ditanyain mau jurusan mana jadi apa beda MOLO jawaban gue. ada jadi expat perminyakanlah. ada arsitek lah. ada designer lah. ada bisnis lah. semuanya bikin bingung. kadang gue pengen bebas dah kagak mau disuruh ini itu dituntut ini itu untuk jadi "sukses". tapi kenyataannya ya gue yang paling diharapkan untuk jadi "sukses" -,-

tapi apa sih "sukses" itu? kaya? atau bahagia? kalo kaya tapi gak bahagia emang "sukses"? kalo bahagia tapi gak kaya "sukses" juga ga? apa harus dua duanya? apa kalo kaya udah pasti bahagia? bingung kan? gue juga -,-

kalo kata gue yang enak tuh bahagia. gampang dicapai juga kan? gue udah bahagia kok sekarang. ya kecuali kalo mikirin masa depan ini nih. sometimes i just wanna be peterpan who never grew up! SERIOUSLY! atau minum obatnya conan biar jadi kecil lagi. atau... jalani kehidupan normal tanpa khayalan yang membosankan dan penuh dengan kesuraman. <---- menghiperbolakan masa depan seakan sangat kelam.

back to my future. jadi apa nih gue di masa depan? gue suka bisnis, gue suka fotografi, gue suka art, gue suka gambar gambar rumah ndiri (arsitek kan?). ya dan dengan brainstorm selama beberapa menit gimana kalo gue jadi fotografer. nah lama lama kan bisa punya studio sendiri dan kaya deh. <-----mensimplifikasikan hidup seakan mudah untuk meraih kekayaan.

ya itulah rencana gue. TAPI ITU JURUSAN APAAA? bisnis yak? gak lucu kan kalo ada jurusan fotografi. hoahm ngantuk. off to sleep dreaming bout my horrible future -,-